Tamara Altair

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Nov 12, 2018


Remember the days I just used this blog as a digital mood board? I'm going back to that.
Literally a mood board.


Nov 10, 2018


YIKES. I feel off my blog game this month for sure. Its been a pretty busy past few weeks. In all of the whirlwind I did head out to California for work! I got to hang out with John and Dylan for real this time! Work and play, the balance I live for. I will be spending increasingly more time there in the future so this trip was a chill Burbank  vibe filled with food, tarot, and a fun game night.
But I'm tired. Its been pretty non-stop and the only thing really keeping me going is the Christmas Cruise and the fact that 2018 is basically over.
I am also petitioning that Jollibee opens in Portland (preferably Beaverton).
Technically this week was my first week in my new job but it was a whirlwind, I have spent no time at my desk, and CHILE.


And yes, I did vote. Oregon makes it so easy since you vote by mail. I dropped my ballot off on my way to my fave smoothie shop. Phew.

-Tamara Altair


Oct 30, 2018


I know halloween is basically over in a day but that doesn't mean real life isn't already spooky, amirite? Here are 3 spooky shows to binge. Now that its cold, rainy and dark it's time to cuddle with a heated blanket and get into:
 YOU. Judging myself, this is a lifetime TV show. You is based on book (that I need to buy to read on a plane) by Caroline Kepnes. It is about an obsessive book store manager that falls in love with an aspiring writer. He stalks her using social media and they eventually date. He is so obsessive he stops at nothing and noone to keep her to himself. Its SOOOO good. Like, he is a creepy person but I also still like his character. It is so weird, its like he is so obsessed with her and cares so much but takes it to an unhealthy level. LOVE.
 I'm only one episode in, but Sabrina is on netflix. If you didn't know Greendale is a city really close to Riverdale. I'm so glad the same people producing Riverdale and telling this version of Sabrina. It's pretty dark but I am giving it a go.
THE HAUNTING OF HILL HOUSE. If you haven't watched it by now what are you doing? It ties together soooo well and the story telling is so good. It was complicated at first because they jump between present and past often and I didn't get it at first. Episode 5 tied it together and from then on I was hooked on figuring out how it would end. It's not a creepy can't sleep scary, but there are moments where I jumped from unexpected moments. 10/10.

What are you binging?
XO-Tamara Altair

Oct 29, 2018


It's Sp00ky SZN and its cold, rainy, and dark.

Almost 40 tracks, 2 hours and 9 minutes of moody music. Something about a mellow tune and rain is the most chill thing ever. I commute so on a drive its great, just trying to unwind its a vibe, and just trying to get ready on a cold morning its what I've been playing all month.
In other spooky szn are you ready for halloween? I have a Halloween inspiration post HERE if you are looking for a last minute costume. Im busy binge watching Haunting of Hill House because TIS THE SZN. It's soooo good and on netflix. Tomorrow I am posting 3 shows that aren't halloween themed but suspenseful shows that you should be binging now!

XO-Tamara Altair

Oct 24, 2018


I feel like I just got here. I spent my first year adjusting, trying to decide if I liked it, if I was doing the right thing. If I would get used to the rain, or make friends, or get a routine. Last year I wrote this post, and I called it "the selfish year."  I recapped 5 things I learned but this time around I have 5 short stores and tea to share.

1) A lot of people ask me about what made me leave my last job in Houston. There were a few reasons but anything I went through honestly shaped me into the strong willed person I am today. My answer is almost always that 'the corporate culture was very poor and not a fit for me personally.' I am currently at a company where we work hard and play hard too. Micromanagement isn't common because we are trusted to be the experts at our jobs. Do politics exist? Of course. It's still corporate America, but I never feel like I am not allowed to be myself. I think the ability to freely do my job and be trusted to be an expert is the best thing. I know that seems really small but it really made the difference in me waking up excited to go to work every day. I loved what I did before, but the struggle of having to fit into a box, knowing you reached a glass ceiling, and knowing your ideas were not valued even though they were amazing weighed heavier. I think not being able to do my job, and entrusting ops to do the job of merchandisers was when I knew I needed to move on. I am happy because people trust me to run my business and let me know that I can do it well, and they collaborate when I need help. 

2) I have gained a lot of confidence in the last 6 months. At my last job, I would often be around colleagues that would talk down to me in different ways or treat me less than. This came in the form of pay gaps within specific titles, different rules for different people, rude/ passive aggressive emails or text messages. I never said anything but TBH, it wouldn't have mattered. Fast forward to now... I found myself speaking up for myself and finding that my voice actually gets heard sometimes. In two years I've only had to do this one time, but it's been impactful for my personal growth. Yes, it resulted in an outcome that I wanted, but over that, I drove that by standing up for me. Thats probably my most important lesson I learned the the last year. Go hard for yourself. 

3) Do I still hate Portland? I don't hate it... but I don't love it here. I like it. Just like. I have a routine down, I eat better, I go to the gym often, yes I have made friends (but only at work... should I try bumble for friends?), I have done more touristy things, I feel like my apt feels like home. I still miss being in a big city, I miss the diversity of Houston, people that say y'all and really good BBQ. 

4) I think the best part about moving here, and its honestly just a personality thing, is that I keep it way too real.  I made it too hard of a habit to be 100 about everything but it's made things so easy. I don't pretend to be anything I'm not and if you like it, I genuinely rock with you, enjoy your friendship and we vibe. If we don't vibe I don't bother to pretend. This is a good and a bad thing. Good for me because I out here protecting my energy, but bad because there are like maybe 5 people that know I don't rock with them and it's mad awkward when I'm stuck in their presence. I just can not pretend to be a friend. I don't have the bandwith with everything that I deal with. I reserve that energy for people who deserve it. But protecting your energy is real! I'm never pressed because I don't need to pretend. Its been great, so far but who knows what another year will do. 

5) Im still a work in progress. I have been reading the daily stoic everyday and focusing on the art of living. A few months back I read "My Miracle Morning" and am focused on making my life better mentally. The Daily Stoic helps me reflect daily on little aspects of my life and in the middle of a lot of chaos I feel ok. OMG. Growth. 


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